2008-11-17 11:43:16 UTC
Background Info: I do NOT have add or adhd, i have chronic depression and ocd, but have never been treated for them.
Yesterday... about 6:00 pm, i took two Adderall XR, the bottle is marked 15mg. I didnt feel anything, i was told i was supposed to feel "high", i felt NOTHING, so about an hour later, i took 3 more. An hour later... still nothing, four more.
Around 10:00pm last night, i began to feel very hyper. I am a VERY calm, quiet, sleepy person. This was extremely weird to me. I did not feel "high" but i felt hyper and i was talking alot and very FAST!
The hours begin to run together after that... sometime between 10-2 i got up to use the restroom and blacked out...for about four seconds, and then i was fine.
During the night, until about 9am, (im guessing) my heart started beating very rapidly, and very HARD. breathing became VERY difficult, i was really hot (and AC was on) , my thoughts were running together at a million miles a minute, everytime i get up to use restroom i experience four second blackout. My OCD was increased dramatically, i cannot focus on anything, but for some reason, i can focus intently on my rituals from OCD.
As the morning progressed, i began to feel better. Still very sick, but MUCH better. I've been up all night and all morning with anxiety. Thankfully, my heart has calmed down. Breathing is a TAD bit easier (still very hard and unnormal) , but i still feel sick to my stomach (very, VERY, very nauseous).
I have been reading overdose stories about seizures and migranes and comas and death when it finally wears off (WHENEVER THAT WILL BE!), as well as fainting and other things.
My symptoms are still very bad, but ARE getting better. I CANNOT (CANNOT) go to the doctors.
Is there ANYTHING, i can do right now? Any idea at ALL when it will wear off?? When i can FINALLY sleep? Not feel nauseous? Am i REALLY going to DIE, or was this just the worst mistake of my life, and something to NEVER, NEVER do again?
I am already EXTREMELY scared, understand the seriousness and LEARNED MY LESSON, so please dont be too harsh. I am really looking for help... We all make mistakes... Please dont be too harsh.